A bit of writing from the old 3:15 experiments, this from April 9, 2011:
Pushing forward and upwards
Sometimes it feels like
And wind beaten
Fuzz inside my head
Words escaping me
Need a glimpse of the light
The beacon, that moment of
Clarity, to bring me back,
back to what was never lost.
I remember how I was feeling when I wrote that. I was stuck in a job that wasn't right for me, too stubborn or afraid to leave. I felt constantly drained, anxious, and overwhelmed. It felt Iike I was living a life of shell-shock, frantically rushing from day to day, and actually experiencing as little of it as possible.
While I don't miss living that nightmare, I am grateful for the lessons learned during that tricky time in my life. It took me a long time to learn them, and a severance package, but eventually, I got the idea. Life is now. This is it. It's not happening in the future, and it sure as hell isn't happening in the past.
Despite all the delusions of grandeur... This is it.
So take a good look around you, and see the good. And if you feel too bogged down, held under and suffocated to see the good (as I once did) then know that change is possible. It may not happen quickly, but you have an evolution to get on with. So don't let yourself get stuck in the
proverbial (primordial?) mud.
Sometimes it's the mud that we need to experience before we learn to soar.